Here I go…again!

Again? When will it stop!

I can’t believe it!  I STILL have to practice my speech….1 time a day…for two weeks….before I can deliver it.  And this isn’t Putting Failure In Its Place.  No, this is My Brain Has A Hole In It!

But wait….there is more.  I didn’t make any changes in the speech and I still have to practice!

Is there something wrong with me? Do I just not get it?

This is the first week of reading the speech;  I have had to focus on what I was trying to say in the speech; the words just ran together.  I know that isn’t normal; I just have to get use to it. I delivered this speech about 500 times now…and I still have to read it.

Frustrating. On the flip side: my telling the story won’t get old…because for me, it is like the first time delivering the speech.


Was I nervous?

IMG_0486Last week, I got to speak in front of college students.

While I don’t normally get nervous, I was with this group!  Oh no:  what if I am becoming like ALL the other speakers?

Could this be a fact?  I haven’t got nervous since my stroke.  What was once a “little benefit” could be gone. While it bothers me a little, I am kind of psyched about getting my old self back.  Now before I speak, I won’t be able to eat, I will pace back and forth,…. and I will get chills down my spine.  Ok, I won’t do all those things, but I am excited to get my “old self” back.