I still struggle. Let’s see if I can explain it.
I recently read the birthday cards I received. They were very funny to everyone in the room. But when I read them out loud, I had to concentrate on every word. Unfortunately, I didn’t know what I was reading, but people laughed.
If I read them out loud several times, I might get the humor but it would take work. It is hard to explain the disorganization in my brain. When I read, I see each word but I can’t connect them in any context. They are just a bunch of individual words.
Even now, Jill is writing this for me because I can’t do it myself. I tried to tell her what I wanted to write about but my explanation was all over the place. She asked me questions and worked with me until she understood what I am trying to explain. It is frustrating but luckily, we work well together and usually laugh as we talk things through.
Language and cognition are big hurdles. It has been 9 years and I am still trying!