The disruption in Gordon’s thinking and speaking is for me, the most mysterious. How is it that one minute, he is speaking in (mostly) full sentences and the next, he is looking at me with his mouth open and no words are coming out? If this were happening to me, I doubt I would risk speaking much at all.
Not Gordon. Every day he goes into his office and tries to make phone calls–cold calls to total strangers no less!! He has a script that helps him direct communication to email rather than the phone, which is good. However, now and then he still hits a block in speaking on the phone. This is when he calls me into his office, points to the phone, and expects me to somehow know who he is talking to and what he is trying to say. He fully expects me to walk in and seamlessly pick up the conversation where he left off.
While I appreciate his faith in my abilities, not once has this experience been seamless in any way. The awkward silence while I try to figure out what is going on is evident to the poor person on the other end of the line. We fumble the next few moments but eventually get the conversation back on track.
Does this happen every day? Nope. In fact, it is happening less and less.
Is it frustrating? Yup!
Does it stop Gordon from making phone calls every day? Not a chance!
All parts of recovery are a team sport, even communicating. I am so thankful to have a teammate who is willing to keep training.